Dear mr. PTSD…

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Dear mr. PTSD

 

Dear mr PTSD, I used to be so afraid of you. I was so afraid to face you that I unconsciously gave you permission to take over my life.

Willingly and acceptingly you bullied me into the abyss without me even putting up a fight just because I didn’t want to be looked at  different,

because I didn’t want to admit and FACE THE FACT that I am suffering from a mental illness, that I have PTSD.

But now I AM TAKING A STAND and letting you know that I will not allow you to bully me anymore.

I am here to tell you today that I am in control, and I will not allow you to drag me back into shutting out the people I love the most,

the people I care about, and doing the things that I loved to do.

You have drained me almost completely over the last several years, you have taken away my interest of living to just existing,

and always showed up to haunt me every time the thought of doing something fun or being around people.

You don’t seem to ever go away, you are always telling me that nowhere is safe, you cannot trust anyone, and that I am better off staying at home where it’s sate.

You have kept my mind shackled and convinced me into believing that the whole world has gone mad, no one understands me, and people are just wasting away their lives.

But now I’m standing up, standing tall and taking charge of my life by speaking up, admitting that I have PTSD,

I need help, and that I am willing to go the extra mile to put in the work to have my peace and joy.

 

The Fight

 

I will face you and take a stand in taking the first step by admitting that I have a problem and I need help.

I will seek out the proper resources that I can use to help me on this journey to recovery as I don’t have to walk it alone.

I will take my life back from you one day at a time, breath by breath and continue to walk in victory.

I will strive to beat you and I will never give up! I will strive to help all my comrades to do the same as you have kept so many of us in bondage.

And lastly, I want you to know that I have a greater purpose in life and I will break free.

I know that this journey will not be easy but I must first transform myself in order for me to transform the world around me.

Because I HAVE THE POWER TO BEAT YOU, I HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE YOU; I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO BREAK FREE. I, CHOOSE LIFE!

 

The Aftermath

 

I know you’re still there but I have beaten you.

I also know that you will never go away but I know now; now I know how to deal with you whenever you decide to show yourself.

However, I will no longer live my life in fear or spend every minute of the day listening to every word you say and doing the things you want.

So from now on, from this day forward, I will continue to build, grow, and put my best foot forward as long as MY HEART CONTINUES TO BEAT INSIDE OF MY CHEST!

Nonetheless, I will continue to stand tall and live free because I have no intentions of giving up control of my life or my destiny.

BE INSPIRED AND STAND UP TO PTSD…

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